It's weird hearing songs proclaiming love and thinking "damn. I got no one to sing those for." Like these ones. I suppose I can think of them as songs for potential. I'll probably at some point fall in love, or heavy like, with someone cool again. Not everyone in the world is like my ex-wife. So I can sing to that ghost-shape of future maybes.
I've tried hard to listen to stuff that we listened to, but man...some of it's too fraught. Like Holland, 1945 below...that was our walk-out music for the wedding. I high-fived a surprised-looking Everette on the way out. She cried so hard trying to read the vows I wrote (I wrote both our vows at the last minute because she wouldn't, by the way) that she barely got through. Her dad got lost or had to lasso her insane (literally!) sister to the bumper of his car so her brother walked her down the aisle. To "The Trapeze Swinger".
Wednesday morn
So apparently my roommate has a feed for my site and she was concerned that my last post was due to drunken craziness instead of my normal brain malfunctions. I can say, happily, that while I was indeed drunk while writing it, I stand by every word.
Sarah woke up with Trampled by Turtles running through her head, so I found this live version of "Wait So Long" for her to enjoy:
The bass player is so endearingly awkward.
The Kings put a third period all up in the Blues' backsides last night. They come in trailing 4 to 1 and then go out with a 6-4 win. How much do the Blues hate playing my fellas? Love it. Also: Never fight Kyle Clifford. He will fuck you up so bad. Lucky #13, the Big Red Dog.
Note also the lack of fucks given while he skates off after hitting that guy so hard he forgets his kids' names.
Saturdaysaturdaysaturday
Sarai, Kevin and Ikoi came over last night, and we got silly drunk and played board games. Kevin, I now know, hates Trivial Pursuit with a passion bordering on lunacy, though he held it in long enough to get through the game. The 90s Edition was way harder than I thought it would be...having lived through them I thought I'd have some special insight but nuh uh.
We also played darts, the two of them against me. I jumped out to an early lead, but then decided to play from all the way across the room instead of the normal spot, and ended up unable to hit much at all. Still fun though. Ikoi mostly sat with her new computer and configured things. We played Cards Against Humanity with the little printed out cards I downloaded. They worked ok. We weren't drunk enough at that point to really get into it.
I just re-read every post since I switched the site to wordpress back in 2005. That was odd. I came across posts from when I bought the house, when I broke up with Desi in 2006, from the fires in 07, from a variety of times fraught and fantastic. I remembered Lobster God.
I like the list of categories that I imported from blogger into WordPress. Here's a couple:
If you ever wanted to kick me in the taint
You'll find me May 7 at the Casbah. J. Mascis plays on his Several Shades of Why tour, with Black Heart Procession opening, the day after my (and Marie's and Ryan's and Ikoi's dad's) birthday. I'm going to co-opt the show as my birthday party, so count on my being drunk, irritating, and probably deserving of a nutkick.
Here's a link to one of the songs, "Is It Done?", which is beautiful and disconcerting, coming from the king of crazy loud electric guitar.
Here's a video where a guy talks about dinosaurs.
It's really funny.
Here's Dinosaur Jr. with possibly my favorite song of theirs ever, "Get Me"
That sound just makes my ears cry.
bruce fuckin campbell
I'm watching bubba ho-tep with charles. Ossie Davis and Bruce Fuckin Campbell, baby.
It's pretty damn good, actually. 
rare saturday lyric
UPDATE: a midi file for the song. Ryan swore up and down he could make it fit on a guitar. Honest. No, really.
okay. anyone who hasn't read terry pratchett's "discworld" books, or reads this post and doesn't immediately read one, has officially lost at least 50% of the respect that i had for them. if i have much to begin with, that can be a crippling blow.
The Hedgehog Song
Nanny Ogg"Bestiality sure is a fun thing to do
But I have to say this as a warning to you:
With almost all creatures, you can have ball
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 1:
The spines on his back are too sharp for a man
They'll give you a pain in the worst place they can
The result I think you'll find will appall:
The hedgehog can never be buggered at all!Mounting a horse can often be fun
An elephant too; though he weighs half a ton
Even a mouse (though his hole is quite small)
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 2:
The spines on his back are so awful thick
you'll end up with naught but a painful prick.
He has an impregnable hole when curled up in a ball,
Hence the hedgehog can never be buggered at all!Screwing a cow while she goes moo-moo
Will be entertaining to both her and you
Or you might try a tiger, if you have enough gall
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 1
A fish is refreshing, although a bit wet
And a cat or a dog can be more than a pet
Even a giraffe (despite being so tall)
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 2
You can manage a snake, though its poison might kill,
It's amazing how humping a camel will thrill
You can go with a snail if you slow to a crawl
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 1
You can ravish a sloth but it would take all night
With a shark it is faster, but the darned beast might bite
We already mentioned the horse, you recall
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 2
You can roger a skunk if you can stand the smell
Or even an oyster, should he let go of his shell
A troll can be rocky if down you should fall
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 1
For slippery fun, you can cornhole an otter
Or pego a pig after parting his trotters
Or tumble a tapir, though the prospect appall
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 2
For prosimian fun, you can bugger a lemur
To bolster your name as a pervert and schemer
The lemurs cry "Frink!" as a coy mating call
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 1
Antipodean pranks -- you can futter a wombat
Or strive with a 'roo in venereal combat
Or hump a goanna -- go on, do it all
But the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.CHORUS 2
A moose is amusing, a squid quite confusing
Or try on a rhino if you fancy a bruising,
Or mountin' a mountain goat (careful, don't fall!)
but the hedgehog can never be buggered at all.